Monday, February 27, 2006 @ 3:15 PM
another week has passed ~ days to graduation is drawing nearer n nearer.....my fears to graduation is my future ~ people might think i'm insane saying "u should b happy tt u're finally graduating...no need to study anymore!!" but?! wat is my future gonna b after tt?wat should i work as?i've totally got no idea to it ~ NOT AT ALL ~
and will i earn alot jus enuff for me to save....? i hope so ~ i'm not living in a wealthy family and e consequence is tt....haiz ~ i dont wish to say it ~
after all those sufferings, i'm glad my dearie is always there for me...no matter wat happens...and i guess tt's wat god has offered to me....seeing me so pathetic ~ a nice n sweet bf to accompany me... to listen to my sorrows... to pamper me...i may seemed happy and optimistic but i'm jus trying to convince myself... convince tt life will b better if i think this way....but, will it really be better in future?i dunno ~ i jus dun wanna give up so fASt ~ i dun wanna give up on my life....my family....
haiz ~ how i wish i can be more decisive.... then things wouldnt end up like tt ~ making myself so vexed n worried...and my dearie who's always feeling stressed and upset 4 me ~
haiz ~~~i'm just feeling moody ~
